I’ve just had the horrible and utter realisation that what I’ve been writing for the last few months, is, to be honest, complete and utter balls.
Some of it I seemed good at the time, but then I just realised that I didn’t like it at all and around twelve to fifteen minutes later, hated it. I didn’t do anything until now, because until just now, I’d thought that having a blog was about volume, not about the content.
So, I’ve made another resolution, in addition to the one I made twelve to fifteen minutes ago: I’m not going to post crap up here anymore.
I’ll probably regret this one in… twelve to fiteen minutes, but I’d better stop typing now because the full effects of my earlier psot are just starting to hit home.
I’m that kind of person who regrets most of their decisions around twelve to fifteen minutes after making them. It’s either something I’ve done, or said, and then I suddenly realise what I should have said at that point to make what just happened seem a whole lot less awkward.
I’ve narrowed down the problem to two possible sources: (a) I think too much. Maybe I should stop thinking about things I’ve just done and focus on what I’m doing next so I can pay full attention to what’s hapening around me and avoid the next awkward situation, rather than being distracted by what I can’t change. (b) I’m not quick enough. For example, someone would say something. I would then say something back, which would not be something I would say if I weren’t trying to avoid talking to them (This is also a problem, which I shall come to in point (c)). Now, since I wasn’t really paying attention to what they were saying, I would say something which, is not something anyone else would say. I realise, just after I’ve said it, or when I do want to next talk to them, that I’ve just said the most stupid/arrogant/ignorant thing that someone could say at that point. I then proceed to metally abuse myself, which distracts me from stopping me doing it again, which just leads to further distress on myself.
This is why I’ve resolved, suddenly at 4.15am, to stop doing this. Maybe it will make be a better person. Or maybe it’ll just make being a bad person a whole lot less awkward. Either way, it’d be good.
Rik.
(I’ve just realised that I’ve forgotten to explain point (c); perhaps I’ll come to it in a later post, to talk about it now would ruin the effect of what I’ve just said. Which I’ve probably already done, by putting this.)
Seeing as I’m up this late, I decided to post something.
Shitty opening sentence, I know, but I always have trouble with starting posts - I suppose it’s because blogging gives a sense that I’m talking to myself, a well known sign of madness; but I guess that’s the risk I took when I set this thing up. ^_^
Anyway.
Like most internet savvy people, I use torrents to get stuff for free - this was all well and good when I thought that the internet was anonymous; however, since I have now realised that whatever I do on the internet is not secret (my ISP is Virgin Media), I’ve decided to use torrents a bit less illegally and start to attempt to legalise my (fairly large) music collection. eBay is a good place to get CDs - though it is a bit frustrating that I don’t actually have a working CD drive to rip the tracks from them - and iTunes is a good place for downloads and stuff. It’s just that MUSIC IS SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE. Of course, things like Keane giving away their new song for free helps - and it’s quite a good one too (only available until 11am today though :O), but it’s putting a bit of a strain on my bank balance. I may just have to start torrenting again. *shock horror*
To the title: You may know of an Australian Electronica band called Cut Copy. Then again, you probably don’t.
Electronic-y music happens to be my favourite kind, along with more folky, rocky and poppy stuff, so naturally, Cut Copy is one of my most played bands at the moment. It started when iTunes put one of their singles, Lights & Music, up for free download. At first I didn’t like it - I was probably in a bad mood - but it sat on my iPod for a while, not being played. Then, one day, I was watching random Trackmania videos on YouTube, and I came across this video:
Apart being in awe of the AMAZING Trackmania skills on display, I also liked the music. I liked it enough to go and find out what it was, anyway. It turned out to be Cut Copy - this prompted me to ‘get’ their album, In Ghost Colours, and I have to say it is one of my all time favourites. It may just be that I’m slightly obsessed with it at the moment, but I think the way one track blends into another, whilst still keeping a great hook, is fantastic. Feel The Love and Hearts on Fire (from the video) are two of the best from the album. As well as Lights & Music, which I came round to after a few more listens.
I then discovered that Cut Copy had made another album previously, in 2005, called Bright Like Neon Love. The name intrigues me, so I decided to get that as well. Hmm. In my opinion anyway, it isn’t as good as In Ghost Colours - rather than having sophisticated rhythms which merge into one another, you get repetetive loops which grate after a while. Even though I like them all. I hate this album, but I also love it at the same time. It’s confusing, to say the least.
Bright Like Neon Love.
Anyway, there is one song which I don’t hate at all. In fact, I quite like it, even though it’s a bit slow. It suits it though. It’s called Future…
It is a pretty odd video, but I like it for that.
Anyway, I’ve spent far too long on this post, so I’m going to leave it there.
